Saturday, May 19, 2007 ?

Hola everyone! I'm finally back to the blogging world >.< For those who were worried over my absence in class, blogging world or whatever social events & had asked me out of concern over msn or in person, thank you so much! I am alright already!(:

I'd say that life had been pretty hard on me for the past two weeks. Just when I was picking myself up from the earlier ordeal, trying to get over the bad incidents, more things happened. As if my plight was not bad enough, I had to fall sick with a series of symptoms like diarrhoea, vomitting and lack of appetite. This continued for days & I had to skip two days of school instead! The following contains pretty disgusting, or rather, repugnant information. If you're having your meal right now, you are advised not to carry on reading.

You have been warned. (:

I gave a call to my form teacher-in-charge on Wednesday morning, informing her about my condition which has deteriorated. She began asking me random questions like "how many times did you went to the toilet?", "was it diarrhoea or just like the normal stuff?", so on and so forth. I answered accordingly and further on added that I noticed blood stains on the toilet bowl while I was *Ahem* & on the tissue paper when I was *Ahem*. I was pretty petrified when I realised there were blood stains, but my friends calmed me down by saying perhaps I went to the toilet for too many times, therefore causing my skin to be teared a little due to excessive of *Ahem*.

So after hearing this, my teacher urged me to go to the hospital because she reckons it must be due to internal bleeding! Wow, GREAT. -.- And this got me thinking about Pei Jin's recent experience in the hospital.

This happened during her 2nd visit to the hospital. She was down with gastric flu and she told the doctor that an extra piece of news. Just like me, she discovered blood stains on the tissue paper while she was *Ahem*. So the doctor immediately added another 2 more drips to her poor "already had 3 drips inserted" hand. And just like my teacher, the doctor thought that Pei Jin might be suffering from internal bleeding! Really.. these people.. I've got nothing to say about them. Okay, they're damn paranoid!!!!!!!! Pei Jin was already very weak then, yet the doctor gave her so many medicine for don't know what sickness, and so many at a time! What if her body could no longer take it? And according to Pei Jin, it is not a custom for the doctors over here to inform their patients of the type of medicine they are giving them. How great. -.-

I was then having second thought about going to the hospital. I wasn't sure if they could cure me. I certainly do not wish to be a guinea pig.

Then, I asked my teacher who would be accompanying me to the hospital? I mean, you can't expect me to make my way there myself yeah? I've never been to a hospital, I wouldn't know what are the procedures like and all! And this was how my very CARING teacher replied: "I'll be very busy today so I can't accompany you. Hmm.. how about you go to the hospital yourself? Or maybe you can get your friends? Oh, you can approach the students in Room 130.". I can't believe this was her reply. So much for "Approach me if there's anything. I'll try my best to help.". Great help indeed.

My friends were asking me to go to the hospital while others were asking me to observe for another day. I was at my wits' end and therefore sms-ed my mummy. Strangely enough, she did not reply until at night. This was very unusual of her, since she never fail to ring me up minutes after I sms her. I was in despair and at that moment, I wanted to go home very badly. Dear Pei Jin was very kind to stay behind in my hostel and look after me albeit being sick herself!
Thank you, my dear. (:

My mornings were spent in the toilet. Whatever I eat comes out minutes after that. I was so worn out. It was only until noon time till I could have a good rest. I slept until evening time, when my roommates were back from a day of lessons. I was feeling much better then.

Awhile later, Yi Fang invited us over to her room as it was Hui Jun's birthday and she was going to cut her birthday cake. We brought along the presents which we've prepared long ago for her and went over. I was surprised to see most of my classmates in there. You must be feeling very blessed to have so many people celebrating your birthday with you yeah, Hui Jun? (: So anyway, the moment I stepped foot into the room, my classmates began throwing questions at me, like: "Carmen! You okay already?", "Carmen! You lost so much weight! You okay not?", "Carmen! You look very pale! Are you still having tummy ache?" and etc. I was overwhelmed by their concern. Thank you all, my friends. I really didn't expect this. Thank you. (:

My mum called that night. She just received my sms then and called immediately. It must be the damn lousy china connection's fault..

Well, it's been days after that. I'm very much alright now and I'm starting to get my appetite and meals routine back! These days I've often heard comments like: "Carmen! You lost so much weight! Did you eat? Please eat more!". I know I know.. I've lost too much weight all of a sudden. But trust me, it was never my intention to deliberately skip meals for days in order to shed off about 5kg in less than a week or two, although previously I was on a diet routine. :x Actually, it freaks me out every morning when I weigh myself on the weighing scale, only to find my weight dropped by another 0.5kg! By the way, I'm 43.5kg at present. This is by far, the lightest weight I've gotten ever since my height is at 160cm. I know this is damn unhealthy and I've got my parents, especially mummy, worried sick over me every now and then.

Speaking of mummy, here's a very cute incident which happened on Thursday, while I was talking to her over the phone. My jeans and some tees are now too loose for me to wear, so I had to get new ones! That day, I went out with Pei Jun, Pei Jin and Janice. We went to eat Korean food and shopped a little. It's been days since I got out of my school! >.< So I excitedly fill mummy in about my shopping gains. All of a sudden, mummy broke out into tears! She was smiling and crying at the same time.. She said it has been so long since she heard me telling her about my shopping trips, how I managed to slash the prices, how I spent my money and the things that I bought.. And she said she hope that I'll be good in no time, back to normal, doing these. She will be more than happy to know that I'm spending her money, be it on food, clothes or other stuffs because this is what Carmen should be doing! She kept asking me to spend more on food, haha! Aww, my mummy is such a sweetie! I almost cried with her!!>.<

Anyway, my family will be coming over to visit me on the 2nd of June. Initially, they planned to come around the end of June. Yet when my folks got news of me being sick and am physically and mentally down, daddy immediately booked tickets to come over asap. How sweet! I know they must be worried sick. I love you daddy, mummy and ah boy!! Can't wait to see you all in just another 14 days!!! (:

I miss you, baby dear. I am longing for the day when I can lie in your arms, when you will comfort me with your soothing words, soft touch and tender kisses. >.< I so can't wait to see you darling! I love you, love you so so very much!! (:

What a feeling!