It's been frigging long since my last post, too many events & I've no idea where should I start from. Last week had been my most stressful week ever since I came to China. Tests & assignments reallydrove me crazy.. I stayed up till the wee hours everynight to revise.. I had no appetite at all.. I've been having serious giddy spells, insomnia, fever.. I had to take panadol pills in order to fall sleep..
I had been losing weight like nobody's business. I feel very lethargic & I just had this feeling that something bad will happen to me.. a very bad omen.
I just realised today that friends really do come & go. Friends need you for your company - pleasant company, that is. When you're down & all, no one needs you. Friends leave you. Because you dampen their happy mood. & today, I experienced one of the longest distance in the world - when you & i were side by side yet we utter not a single word.
What do you really take me as? A fool? Best friend means a lot to me & if I tell you that you are my best friend, do not ever take it lightly & laughed it off as a joke. The way you treated me really made me realize that I'm just a fool to think that you cherish me as much as I cherish you. I am too upset & there's no way to describe it.. sigh.
I am very tired. I miss my family, I miss my darling.